My Schmaltzy Journey of Life.

When I was in 4th grade and today who I am is vastly different, did I become a better person than I was back then? Or am I lacking one positive attitude I used to have? I have become a better person but also I lost the girl who wouldn't bat a eyelid before doing crazy things, crazy in a good way. She used to love presenting, she would never keep her head down, she always smiled, she ignored the comments she got for being wild and care free and also how she looked didn't bother her. She was innocent. And brave to deal with the negativity in her life.  4th grade was when I started to write, love letters to my crush in hope he'd send me one back. Well i don't know who if it's he or just some other person, every time I would be taken to the supervisors and told to stop (because someone complained? I don't know) but well little did i stop. My memory is short, but I'm assuming I stopped when I was in 7th grade. My first ever writing was love letters. That...

I have been working on this one since Idek honestly, I kept on thinking about how unoriginal my last blog post was and I wanted to be original this time. This is the second time I'm writing everything all over again cause I didn't save my word doc. Fml. So I have wrote about how I felt about how my family dealt with one of my biggest past mistakes and how I didn't want to live in the same house with them, "Ohana means family" . I wrote about how that same very mistake made me have disorders such as eating, depression, anxiety attacks and much more, "Blurry veins". Wrote about how much our lives mattered to everyone around us and death isn't the solution, "One life, Big Difference". Also tried to be a little motivational. And then the unoriginal paraphrased "let's be mindful." That did help for some weeks, but it stopped. Because all I needed was to trust myself. My decisions. To believe in myself. This is hard sinc...